don't be depressed, be happy :) don't worry be happy :) It is always tempting to be a little depressed when it comes to your own birthday, but you have to understand that this day is not for sad feelings, but for happy ones. Birthdays are the days you were born, shouldn't you be happy about it? :) I've had the same thing a long time ago, I loved to drink some kratom red vein tea, chill, and be alone in depression but that aint really the way. My wife was always cheering me up with a cake on my face or some other surprises she loved to do lol. Good day !