Actually, it's all bitterness.
Bitter over having been a member for just over 1 month.
Bitter over not instantly seeing your own name at the top of the leaderboard.
Bitter over not having ALLOWED YOURSELF the GRACE AND PATIENCE to ENJOY learning the game and progressing through it like someone with a longer attention span.
Relax, learn the game and enjoy it.
OR...Be gone...you will not be an appropriate "fit" for WGT.
It is the usual pattern...Flameout in the first 30 days due to no attention span, frustration at having risen too quickly, and failure to be patient and to learn.
Relax and play a while. And calm down.