killeshin: my handycap does not go down
I know you say you understand, but just to be clear, it's not a handicap. It's just a score average. Shoot score below your average and it will go down. Just in case you didn't know, 9 hole scores get doubled for average purposes so a 35(just a random number for reference) will be doubled and used as a score of 70 for your average.
Eventually, your average will stop going up with bad scores until you reach the next tier so don't be afraid of posting bad scores. This will only help you learn the game better before promoting to the next tier.
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