robb626:[...] this game has become so insanely difficult for me [...] i think that the game is to hard to expect people to continue to pay your prices.
First of all, I commiserate your health status and wish you all the best for improvement or stabilisation, whatever is possible.
Nevertheless, I don't like your complaint because it deliberately misses the information that not the game is insane (sorry for the pun) but that your health issues dictate your success and needs.
Please consider to step back from your ambitions, perhaps -4 would not be a proper goal for you. Dedicated slow clubs may be helpful, combined with reasonably priced balls.
Include the Starter clubs in such thoughts, as they are relatively slow in combination with custom balls. Then, practice games from forward tees might be more fun to compensate for their low shot characteristics.
Anyway, hold your head up and have fun!