Yes, you sound like a beggar. A tour legend, with only 8 friends. Been here 5 years. In that time you certainly should have learned how to acquire credits besides begging.
I hope you enjoy your birthday, and will have many more.
At 56 1/2 years I had my 1st major heart attack, and 2 weeks later had open chest 3 way bypass surgery. That was many! years ago. I have been fortunate, perhaps you will be also. My nickle.