In your present situation I have found Old Grand Dad, 100 proof, over ice to be a wonderful way to cope short term. my nickle.
Can't do it, a year ago my doctor said my liver was pissed at me. Many years of Jack Daniels. I should be the one in the ground, not my friends. The one who passed had an occasional beer and never smoked.
while i was picking up my driver (re-grip) i saw he had the 3w match . i got it with new grip for $20 .... : )